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Therapy ft. Junior SSC
02:55
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I’ve been tryna keep up with myself, what a hell of a task
Mum says I’ve always spoke like I been here in the past
All the knowledge from my ancestors, prayed on all my transgressions
Kings never speak, they give orders with a hand gesture
I can show you the tekkers,
They used to listen to my calls, they used to go through my letters
But I still found a way to speak in code to my bredda,
And when it’s all said and done, I’ll be a goat to remember
I never claimed to know it all, I’m just giving my view
When you figure out your purpose, like who would’ve knew
Mum called, she said I spoke really well on the news
When I think about my past at times, it’s left me confused,
Like where was all this brightness buried when I was going hell
When the judge read out the sentence, was a nail to the head
I weren’t meant to get caught up but I fell for the bread
Guarantee I’ll turn this round is what I said in my head
Gotta keep up with myself I can’t get up
They talk that talk but couldn’t walk inside my shoes nah
On a move like what’s a brudda gotta do yeah,
Making moves like what’s a brudda gotta do yeah,
Meanwhile they were praying that I fall, I was down with my back against the wall
I had a dream that I had it all
I told myself I had to get it all
When the going gets tough you find some solace in your struggle
And the mind deteriorates when your problems start to double,
Running on the roads man was living in a bubble
That will burst really quick when they hit you with a couple
I’m just telling you this ting bruv,
Killers on the roads in jail are catting for a wing job
And your family’s gonna feel a pain they never dreamed of,
What I’m tryna say is fam don’t get yourself binged off,
I’m breaking down the ting cuz,
Plus I’m leaving footprints,
Something you can follow when you get out of the hood king,
Wanna get the gold gotta make a lot of good links,
Grabbed a couple checks here and there, that’s a good drink, don’t care what the hood thinks
I realised my destiny, long life and good will for people that were there for me
Medallion round my neck, got the haters wishing death on me
Told a young boy, you want advice, you can send for me
You know the vibes though
Gotta keep up with myself I can’t get up
They talk that talk but couldn’t walk inside my shoes nah
On a move like what’s a brudda gotta do yeah,
Making moves like what’s a brudda gotta do yeah,
Meanwhile they were praying that I fall, I was down with my back against the wall
I had a dream that I had it all
I told myself I had to get it all
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2. |
Heal My Soul ft. Brenzo
03:32
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I’m down on my knees God heal my soul yeah
I don’t wanna say it’s not my fault
I walked through the darkness still stand bold,
Yeah took so many losses down this road.
Only guarantee in life is that death is for certain
I don’t think I was put on this earth to be working
For a next man building up his pyramid first
I rate the actions, you can never fool me with words
I want my just dues, people that I trust there is just few
Product of environment came up as a rough yute
Tough too, doing what it takes just to cut through
Touch who, I ain’t having man tryna box food
Off my son’s plate, I can’t fathom the thought
It’s all fun and games til you have to stand up in court
Then comes the flight date yeah they was tryna deport
If the succeeded I’d probably now be lined up in chalk
By myself back home in an alley out in K Town,
The feeling’s different when I pray now,
When you’re on the top, treat people with integrity
Cos you might see them on your way down
I’m down on my knees God heal my soul yeah
I don’t wanna say it’s not my fault
I walked through the darkness still stand bold,
Yeah took so many losses down this road.
I can’t fully make amends for the past
But that’s life though, think that I was meant for the task
Yeah I’m alright bro greatness got the zen for the path
And I’m consistent, doing what I meant from the start
Every time I write a bar yeah it stems from the heart
School days beat boxing yeah I fell for the art
Jailhouse freestyling kept my head on the craft
Now when the credits roll up see I’m there on the cast
I paved my own way, Vic was never gonna be a no name
How you feeling jealous bout my progress, that is so lame
When you was right there when I was grinding through the cold days,
Funny how they all change
More money more problems, that’s the life of a boss,
When close friends switch sides it’s like a knife to the gut
They was tryna get me down, I had to fight for my spot
And I’ve been waiting on my time, I had my eye on the clock
I never lost sleep, suited up looking like a trustee
Big conspiracy, thinking nah it must be
Table full of made men, everything is lovely
We came a long way from pumpy
I’m down on my knees God heal my soul yeah
I don’t wanna say it’s not my fault
I walked through the darkness still stand bold,
Yeah took so many losses down this road.
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3. |
Gaps
02:09
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I think the gaps are getting closer now
I heard they said that I’m the new sound poster child
Tryna get this picture perfect so I had to post a while
Now it’s sounding like I went and got a ghost to write,
Yeah so my G let’s make a toast tonight
Thanking God for all the harsh lessons cos they coached me right,
Death before dishonour that’s the oath we write,
I’d rather be up north in a jail that is mostly white
I gotta thank the judge you woke me up,
Cos the devil’s looking stripes and it won’t be us
I was just standing on the severy saying long me up
Now I’m talking prices with promotors when they phone me up
“When my verdict came back the judge was like “I’m looking at giving you life” and I was thinking “what you’re gonna give me life for this” but then imagine I had to go to some assessment with the probation so they can determine whether or not I should get life or not.
Do you know how mad it is to have to sit down with someone for an hour and they’ve got to decide whether or not you should spend your life in jail? I’m telling you fam it’s crazy”
It’s real life I came in well equipped,
The plug know my word is my bond I’ll never burn a bridge
Memories of Chubzie as I burn a spliff
Showing him my first bars in class when I learned to spit
Yeah I still remember how it all felt,
Rest in peace to all the soldiers that have all fell,
That’s the reason with this pen and a pad
I can’t hold it in, swear down it’s turning me mad
I had to shoulder it when I heard the death of my dad
And that’s the mode I’m in cos if I fail some friends will be glad,
Cos jealousy is cheap and betrayal’s even cheaper,
And if they prove you planned it then the punishment is steeper
“You know what’s mad yeah, I got convicted under the Joint Enterprise law. I remember even when I got knocked I was thinking “nah no way they can send me jail for something I didn’t actually do myself” you know like that. And by the time the case started building it got to trail, I was like “rah they’re actually being serious.” Next thing I know, the verdict was guilty and that was it, it’s kinda crazy fam I’m telling you”
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4. |
Outcome
02:40
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The last couple years I’ve just literally been holding on
A lot of things have been going on
Just cos you see me smile always doesn’t mean that I’m going strong
I hold it in and I know it’s wrong
Cos it always spills out a next way
Probably why I’m banging out the gym on my rest day,
Probably why I’m still smoking weed for my head space
Probably why I always feel scared to react cos I’m worried ‘bout a next case
I’m just speaking my truth, I was bringing it to school man was thinking I’m loose
The terrain gets harder, gotta play way smarter
So we mask up cos where I’m from losing face matters
My emotions are numb, got the spirit of my nan I wasn’t raised by my mum
And she always taught me how to pattern myself
Probably one of the reasons why I struggle asking for help
Coming from a place where it’s shisty
Grew up in the ghetto in the 90’s
Death around the corner yeah it might be
Ending up in jail was very likely
But you know you live and you learn and you put it all in prayers to almighty
I used to dream about this on a nightly, now I’m living it and I like it
I’m just reaching a point in my life I believe you can seek what you want
And it’s long looking back when you lead from the front
No scandals on my name, been a G from the jump
I got a couple friends who got their heads in sand
Building castles in the sky told em get you some land
Cos it’s easy just to dream bro, you gotta make it manifest
How’s it gonna happen when all you’re doing is standing there
I had a reason with sis
I was stressed about some things what sort of living is this
Like when the gonna leave me alone,
You know how long I dreamed ‘bout having keys to a home
Yet still I’m up in court wasting money on a legal team
Like I ain’t got a bigger dream
Sis told that’s a minor bruv, your blessings will be backdated
Cos you’re on the path to greatness
Coming from a place where it’s shisty
Grew up in the ghetto in the 90’s
Death around the corner yeah it might be
Ending up in jail was very likely
But you know you live and you learn and you put it all in prayers to almighty
I used to dream about this on a nightly, now I’m living it and I like it
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5. |
Reinvented
03:22
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I reinvented myself
Can’t repeat the same mistakes is what I said to myself
When everybody left me stranded I was there for myself
Looking in the mirror proud like I’m here for myself
For real I came and saw,
Hope my son don’t imitate my flaws
Far from perfect and I’ll be the first to name my faults
See everything disintegrate from the case I caught
Cold cell time to face my thoughts
You see the lane I’ve forged, heavy burdens and I paid my cost
Frontline had to gain my props
I really went to war with killers, really used to pray for warmer dinners
You know the saying what makes us strong is never gonna kill us
I want my flowers while I’m still here
Party at my funeral, no I wanna see tears
Celebrate my life dressed in all white,
Tell the DJ keep my records playing all night
I go into a trance when I prophesise
My life’s mad, I can’t break it down I just hypothesise
Yeah I used to kill the down when I dropped the price
Lock the spot, ran them breddas off and we cut the ties
I reinvented myself
Can’t repeat the same mistakes is what I said to myself
When everybody left me stranded I was there for myself
Looking in the mirror proud like I’m here for myself
I remember when they cut the lights
We used candles just to light the rooms
Empty cupboards, felt like life was doomed
Always knew that I’d be out there soon
Thinking ‘bout my future, will I even see 21
Or will my life fade back to black, on an Amy one
Bullet wound in my arm, yeah he gave me one
Had to scratch him out, that’s how the game is won
You don’t know the half, I can’t trust him I don’t know his heart
Sister told me keep your head up, yeah I know it’s hard
Got my sentence, judge really had no regards
Was thinking that I’ll never go to yard
But despite the journey, I made it here on my own accord
Got a title in my name, I’m an owner dawg
Who’d have ever thought this kid was gonna hold awards
Hold on let me lower my sword
I reinvented myself
Can’t repeat the same mistakes is what I said to myself
When everybody left me stranded I was there for myself
Looking in the mirror proud like I’m here for myself
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Vic Santoro London, UK
Vic’s life is proof that anything is possible. Through dedication, hard work and humility, he has rewritten his own narrative, and exciting chapters are yet to come. Channelling his lowest points into endless positivity is what got Vic here, and being himself and staying faithful to God is set to take him to the world and back. ... more
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